A Space For Me

Finally

2007-08-04T12:58:00.000+08:00

There was a time...
Oh look! haha I'm back... Guess there is time today to do alittle bit of blogging... Its been like since wat? haha damn long... I miss this blog... so many things has happened... Survival of 7projects at the same time, NCC, Birthdays, Campus road run. And now exam is coming... in like 2weeks! my exams starts on 16th haha... After that is gona be paradise for awhile! Maybe not... still have to work haha... And my pay sux! Lol... And when next sem starts i'm gona be having TEP... Hope i can slack it off... Time to double up the training program for myself... Its to lose weight haha... Alright I'm very sick at the moment... No Idea wats up... but damn sick... i'm Gona study! bye!

PA Race

2007-05-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

As We Row Row and Row! And We Stumble On The Boat!
Alas... I've finally found time to blog again... Ain't such a good week... Got a Mgkt Proj dued this friday and i'm only 70% done... And well totally think i flunked today's Buiz Finance ICA1... totally blanked out when i saw the paper! Crappy shit... Got ICT proj dued next monday... Duno wat to do... havent started... Oh man PA race this saturday... So excited... Hope Can bag some medals!!! Guys we won't leave bedok till the end of the races k! That would mean we got people getting into the FINALS!!! LETS DO THIS!
Sigh no matter wat i say... I'm afraid abt it myself... No matter lets cheer!!!

LuoShiDo

2007-05-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

Decide Well... Make It Worth... Live With No Regrets...

Moderate

2007-05-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

Look Into My Eyes... What do you see?
Its already May... Almost half the year gone... And I'm wondering wat have i done or achieve this year? So messed up... So crappy.... School is kind of cool... But... Still haven't really talked to some classmates yet... Well they dun seem to want to talk to me-.-... Now why is tat? Haha someone gotta do something and quick!

National Women's Kayaking Race... May 13th at macritchie... haha Jing and girls dun trash too many people! Lol U all can do it one la... And dun think too much... Nyp Kayaking team will be rooting for u! Now who wana see Damien holding pom poms cheering for the girls at the finishing line? *Millions Raised hands!* Or who wanna see Daniel doing that too? Alright Best of the best wishes... No u dun need luck u can do it! Ha!

May 13th 11-7pm Pets & U is having an adoption Program by ASD... Its oredi on the papers... We are the 1st Shop in the west to hold this program!!! Well done to Pets & U! Applause!!! If u are interested to adopt a dog please come down to take a look... Adoption Procedures will be explained to u by ASD people on that day... So Dog lovers if u are free come on down to take a look yea?
Address: 28 Clementi road, Singapore 129754 Tel:67776679... Right beside NUS by the shop houses near the 24Hour Cheese Prata shop! Nearest to NUS hostel Eusoff!

Alright... Other than sucky time tables i guess everything else is going smoothly for the starting of school =) more to come i guess but i'm enjoying myself for the moment yea!
Bye!!!

Aching...

2007-04-29T10:56:00.000+08:00

I Wake Up From Darkness Knowing Nothing From Light...
Its 11am in the morning... Had such a lousy day yesterday... In fact been having lousy days for awhile oredi... But oh well... We wake up everyday to experience different things right? Lets hope today is good...

Training- Yesterday... Was quite a killer... I've not done 6 triangles since the training for the marathon... and suddenly we were doing 6 triangles-.-... think i oredi slow down at the 4th triangle... but the last triangle i totally chiong man... must be the reason why my back and arms ache so much now...(1 triangle = 3.5km-4km)(6 triangle = 21km-24km) Haha must be doing marathon lar... Tried the new paddle for the 2nd time... quite fun... nvr used something like this before... U can speed up when u want to... not alot of resistance and not very heavy too... i like it=)

School is starting! Now arent we all excited? Haha... I've got a friend who went shopping like crazy yesterday and her reason was because school was starting so need new "supplies" Oh wow... I wish i can spend like her... Money is such a troubling matter to me... Can anyone teach me how to get rich like in 1 month? My dad says: URE 18 GO BUY 4D! then i'll get rich! WTH HAHA! Being legally 18 is fun...(although i look 21)...Still can't wait for school... Its tomorrow right? cool man... I'm gona wake up early tomorrow to go to sch for breakfast... totally miss it... And I heard FJ is closing... Shit... I'll miss the western... Haix...

There are new classmates to meet other than 2 stupid Es... lol ok la not stupid... and they are my Ex-classmates Emily and Elaine... See why i say stupid Es? but ok their quite smart maybe alittle blur that's all=P... Hope my new people are NICE and SPORTING just like my previous class =)...

I cant believe that there is such thing as CLASSICAL for TEP... i mean like everyday go sch 3hrs for wat-.- waste time... haix... Seems everyone in my team is enjoying their TEP so far... Yirui having alot of fun ar? calling suckers to do survey and hearing them say funny stuff... Rocks man...

Girls.. Good luck for National womans... Have faith! Jing! U confirm can one la no worries! Chill man!

Alright... Im Gona go lunch wif my sister and grandma.... *prays* let today be fine... Bye...

Happy Birthday!

2007-04-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Alfred! You're 18 now! Congrats!

Entitled

2007-04-22T22:08:00.000+08:00

The New Beginning...
Lets start Afresh! Its a new school term...=)... Its a New Age!!! Haha...
New Intake of Juniors tomorrow... Man aren't we excited??? Hope we have lots of fun man!

Been sick for 1week and 1 day... This Virus is really getting on my nerves... My muscle shrinked by an inch cox i havent been actively doing any exercise... I feel so fat and weak now... SEE LA NOT ENOUGH REST = ME!!!
Its not the number of hours u sleep a day that determines the "enough rest" its the number of days you rest in a week!(2days in a week must be a rest day) This is to ensure u to be healthy!

My weight is: VERY VERY HEAVY! shit!!! I so much wish my weighing machine is spoilt... But after weighing myself in 5 diff weighing machine and getting the same weight... I must be trying to suspect all the weighing machine in the world must be spoilt! Or maybe Gravity around me must had been wrongly adjusted by earth...
But is tat possible? hmmm... K la i'm fat... end of story! lets all emo over being heavy!
LAlala excited abt tomorrow... good night!

ill

2007-04-17T00:11:00.000+08:00

The Heat Followed By The Freeze
Hell broke loose in my body... Feeling terrible... Feverish yet so cold... Threw up during the 2 warm up rounds today during training... Didnt join in the Sprinting cox i went ot the toilet to throw up some more... Felt terrible today... Maybe i shldn't had gone training.... Wanted to rush home quick the moment Preparation for Club Crawl was over... But i totally forgot abt Debrief! Damn sorry!!! And Here i am unable to slp because there is still this temperature battle inside my body that is totally irritating me... Sweating like shit... Feeling so darn hot.... then when i put on blankets i feel worst...

Such a Long Day today... Excited about the New Year 1s... Haven't really seen alot of them today cox I only saw some while walkin to the sports hall... they look so lost haha! And totally cant wait for my sch to start... 30th April.. HAHA SOME PEOPLE START SCH OREDI! SO SAD! AND I CAN STILL SLACK AROUND AT HOME AND WAKING UP AT LIKE 3PM IN THE AFTERNOON! MAN CAN U BEAT THAT??? ok but been really busy these days so i wake up at like 8 or 9 almost everyday... so much for my happy dreamland...

ROCK MY LIFE OR DULL IT IN BLACK!
Feeling terrible still... I need a Doctor... Good night people!

Respect

2007-04-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

No Chocolate Eggs?
Today is Easter... The day which Jesus rose... Many people would be in the Church Praying to him... But... 1 Man went to the cemetry to pay respect to the dead in the smog of joss sticks and burning flames... Paid Respect to my Grandmother today... She passed away a few years back... She was the 1st relative's funeral I ever attended... I wasn't very close to her but we had memories together( I'm closer to my dad's side grandmother! While i visted my mum's side today!)... I still felt sad when I saw her photo... Who wouldnt? Amist the smokey atmopshere the place felt rather less creepy than it should be...

I worked my ass off today after visiting... And we( Mum, Dad and me) went to work wif joss stick smell! Wow and the Dogs loved it! WTH man! They started going crazy when they smelled tis alien scent and were jumping all around us... Crazy! Haha... They are so cute... Jus like kids...

Today ( In fact for the pass few days) wasn't good... Had Quarrels with my Parents... Got scolded FUCK OFF by a customer!(man She is MENTAL!) Don't know Wat I'm trying to do... I'm like getting pissed of and pissing people off... Turning more EVIL than before... Man this is SHIT!

Its Not the Paddle... Its The Paddler... Its not my life that sucks... Its how I lived it that made it suck...

My Shoulder is aching... both of them are like tearing...

The New Captain! Daniel! His doing a good Job! Seriously... Gosh I must refrain from swearing in front of him... Didnt end up good the last time... In fact we all must refrain yar!

Still not in a good mood today... up till now... and I can't find a person to really complain abt my day... everyone's so busy wif stuff or some just dun feel like talking... while others... they just talk abt their stuff haha! nt that i blame u!!! u can continue! i'm a good listener=) at least can keep my mind off my own stuff...

BYE BYE!

2007-04-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

Nice Fight...
Unfortunately Nyp Did nt bag any medals for the NJCC... But I guess we did put up a fight... Afterall we can't expect much when we only started training on a K1 for 1 month... Still more races to come... And we shall be much more prepared for the next race... However i think if we dun beat Johnathon before the next race then i think we shouldnt even join... Lets work hard and push each other... He aint no easy cake to beat... And of course he will train harder and not let us beat him...

Zzz... I'm still quite sad i screwed my own race... Well no excuses... Accidents just happens Too bad.,, Better luck next time... Oh and er big thx to the team for cheering... I actually did wanted to give up when i lost balance... But nevertheless still finished the race... thx...

To that Fish in Distress who hates fishes... Sry man... I knew i was talking too much... And oh come on get over watever... Shit Happens And Life Goes On! Pick urself up already! Best Wishes and lots of Watever( Tuna? Salmon?)!

Sch IS STARTING!!! ON 30TH APRIL FOR ME MUAHAHAHA! Tep suckers! HOPE TO SEE U IN CHEERS MAN! (dun mind let me bag a few candies for free =D)! Be nice! be VERY nice! or i complain to ur boss!

Alright... Got to train hard and push push push... Lets bag medals the next race...
OK Bye!!!

Dreaded

2007-03-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

Make My Day...
Today is Tuesday... I went to MacRitchie to row with Joel... Wasnt in my best mood though... Had GYM training the previous day so my whole body was aching...
So many people were training at MacRitchie today... Got CJC, NJC, ACSI, Creasents Girls Hwa Chong, National Team blah blah blah... like a few hundreds of people in the waters... Seeing all of them training so hard makes me feel sad about it... Some people can train darn hard but they might not get the results they want... I'll feel bad abt it... Very Bad... Nevertheless in the upcoming competition... I aim for a medal... don't have to be gold... Any medal will do... but in actual fact... I know I just don't want to lose badly! I do not want to capsize before my race ends... I do not want to be the last few to come back for my race... I want to qualify for at least after the Heats... And after that I will give all my best to get a medal... Time is nt my friend... Giving me just 1month or less to train for this Race already showed its dislike for me... However... We are all racing against time...

Seeing the National Team today really made me wonder... Even if I gave my best shot... Will there really be a chance? Everyone has a limit... Our Best is our limit... Each person differs in their limit... And the purpose of training or practicing is to expand the limit in order to reach higher limits... We all know that... But we need a constant reminder to push ourselves and succeed...

Its been so long since I tried to really seriously do something... Truth: I didnt even study like shit for the Exams-.-! So u know how long it was since I did my 100%? But just for this race... I'm giving more than 100%... Alfred, Alfred... Don't fail myself! Stress sia haha!

Yes yes yes I know I have to do my best... I know that for the thousand times people are always telling me... And YES I know that I won't improve by training everyday... Its not like I didnt rest ok! I sleep at least 6 hours a day since Sunday! And I'm not rowing or training on Friday before my race! Today's MacRitchie's 1Km did not seem to be very far... but... It felt as if it was going to take forever to finish that 1Km... I must be Retarded... I know I've always been...

I'm Cross... Working for the Pet shop everyday! Wow... Soon I'm gona start licking people (or Biting=)!!!) Or Barking! Man I'm talking dog language everyday... But hell its fun =)! And the dogs really DO listen to U! Its just that they don't speak to response but they cuddle up to you when you are sad, Hop around and play innocently to cheer you up or even pester you to make you stop tinking about other stuff other than itself... I've never treated dogs as dogs... They are just like Babies... Babies who wants to play, need attention and to be fed when hungry... They are learning to understand you just as we are learning to understand them... Man judging from the way I'm behaving I might just fall in love with them... At least they don't break hearts, they don't make empty promises, they don't argue with you, they don't scold you back, they don't give you attitudes, they are just like friends who abides you... I'm gona believe this and continuing beliving this until someone really drops by and make my day... Be warned though... I'm a tough nut to crack...

I Don't Need Wishes... I Don't Need Pushes... I Need A Miracle... Give Me More Than I Expect... Beyond My Expectations...

Hope my hardwork will pay off both at the race and also other factors... Wanna clue wat else I'm working on? well TOO BAD! No clue! Bye!

Suck...Totally!

2007-03-15T11:36:00.000+08:00

To say? Or not to say?
My Mood is Black...Just like my favourite colour...the universe is black...just like it is in space...Tiny stars and planets glitter glimpse of lights...only to be waiting to be eaten eventually by darkness...However, just like these stars...my hopes glitter alittle hoping that there will never be a chance for darkness to consume...
OK enough wif the emo part...

I feel like saying Thank you to my friends=)...So Thank You! Thank you to my kayaking team mates! Thank you to my secondary school clique! Thank you to my basketball friends! Thank you to my JJC friends(CRYSTAL! U BASTARD! EVERYTIME BUSY ASS, k lar ur A-Lvl this yea I forgive u!!) Thank you To people from NYP( yea really new friends but thx alot!) My Previous NYP classmates!

Island creamry has great ice-creams...!!! Some dun think so? I'll tell u why! It depends on who u eat the ice-cream with! I ate with good friends! So it tasted good!

Shit I think I got some disorder...but then again it may be a fact! Come on people! Tell me the truth! I know I'm ugly right! Now u know wat? I'm Fat! So it makes me Fat and Ugly! Oh man Beat that! CAN U BEAT THAT? Its like the MAXIMUM Limit which anyone can reach!(well Almost minus the part where i got pimples all over my face mixed wif achne, well i might as well work on it by rubbing shit on my face just to really reach maximum!)

Now I'm Broke...Penniless...I spent everything on food! U know when people is in a bad mood they eat much more than normal? Yea tat happens to me too...Great...Seriously!

I hurt my Right Shoulder...from Kayaking..Hasnt heal yet...kind of worried...resting too long isn't good...but training too hard makes it worst...I'm Cross...someone tell me wat to do!!!

Bye!

Love, Only, Me

2007-03-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

Cause Of Events, Never Ends...
Looking right in front of you, you see a guy. He is searching for something, will you help him?
Or, would you try and observe if he is handsome, cute, tall etc, before deciding to help him?
Cos someone told me this:
-Hi are you looking for someting? I decide to help you since your cute.

Gosh...I duno if I should be happy or disgusted-.-...I'm quite glad she said I was cute...But WAT THE HELL IS THE WORLD GETTING INTO...SO IF I WAS UGLY SHE WON'T HELP ME???-.-

Ok nvm her...
THE COACH came down for our gym training on Monday...HELL UNLEASHED! ok hell unleased the 2nd day actually...when all the ache and pain took over your body...could hardly move when I woke up...could finally take my 1st step out of bed at like 2pm...bloody hell...imagine the ache man...but partially cox i haven't done gym during exam periods and the sudden burst of heavy weights just didnt seem quite ideal for my body...crap...BUT I'M GROWING! tats a good thing man!

K bye!

Depression Gets On My Nerve

2007-03-04T09:50:00.000+08:00

Time for fun? Not quite...
Helo...Been quite some time since I blogged huh? Exams are over...but it isn't quite fun after exams anyway...Still kind of depressed and worried abt the papers...Thinking of starting to prepare for any possible sub-papers man...crap...everyone's trying to tell me forget abt it and have fun 1st...well...its not like i duno...its just that i cant...
Gosh some national competition is coming up end of march OR early april...its a sprint...i can't even balance well on the K yet...how am i gona learn and sprint well in such a short time...crap...makes me depressed even further...well...gtg...going out wif some kick-ass people...at least something for me to look forward to=)...
Date me people! Dun leave me dying of boredom=(!
Later!

2007-02-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

24th Feb 2007 Saturday 8.30pm
News report:
A fire started at 8.30pm in Jurong West St 42 Block 401 6th floor. Civillians were asked to evacuate the 5I HDB flat and 2 Fire Trucks arrived at approx 8.45pm. At least 8 other police cars were involved and approx 20 policemen/women were patrolling the corridors and evacuating people. Fire was said to put out at approx 9pm, but thick gray smoke filled the already dark and dull sky. It appears that there was no casualties in this fire incident however many were choking from the heavy smoke and dust.
An unhappy civillian whom only wished to be known as Alfred Tan( Identities are confined due to protect the stupid idiot 6th floor family who started the fire! ) responded to our interview: I was studying MARKETING in my living room with my computor on blasting at the maximum volume around 8pm when I sort of smell smoke and thought that it was people burning joss sticks and papers downstairs. I went to bath around 8.15 and my Dad came home around 8.30 and shouted to me that a fire broke out on the 6th story while I was still in my bath. I had no choice but to take my SUPER CUTE Elfie (Shih Tzu) and Bandit (Golden Retriever) downstairs to avoid the choking smoke. Oh...and er...I'M FUCKING PISSED I HAD TO EVACUATE FOR 1HR PLUS WHEN I COULD HAD USED THE TIME TO STUDY MY EXAMS! WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME! ARGH!!! If it didnt happen I wouldn't be spending 15mins typing what I've experienced on my blog =)

SHIT GOT TO MUG!

Label it....

2007-02-24T17:44:00.000+08:00

Purpose of blogging at this crucial moment = waiting to flunk exams...
I'm Slacking as u can see I am blogging at this moment...Left with just Marketing paper, Accounts, and finally Macro Economics...

To hell wif it man...its causing everyone being stressed and worked up...screw the guy who invented exams(Gosh i say this every year dun i?)...I've been sinful...really sinful...
All the CNY goodies adding on the weight and i didnt lose it at all muhahaha...gosh i can't even lift a 500grams weight now...JUST LOOK AT THE SIZE OF MY TUMMY! YUM YUM! Eat more! Support my clan! The Pro-Fats Clan!!!(Scientist says that the more u use your brain in thinking, studying blah blah u tend to get hungry easier than you excercise!)

I'm so screwed for Accounts...dun understand a single shit from the notes( ITS BLANK! SHIT!) i didnt go for a single lecture on accs gee how cool is tat??? now my notes are not filled in and i'm redoing everything(which i totally suspect 99% wrong)...HELP!!!

OH SCREW BACK TO MUG!
A very good luck to all NYP students for your upcoming exams! WORK HARD AND SWITCH OFF YOUR COMP! ITS TOO DISTRACTING! THE REASON U ARE SEEING THIS DURING EXAM PERIOD MEANS THAT U ARE SLACKING LIKE ME! SO U KNOW WAT TO DO!

Lots of Love

2007-02-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

Lots of love to everyone! Smiles! Work Hard for exams! Lets all score! and finally Happy Chinese New Year!

End Of Year 1

2007-02-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

End of year1
I Enjoyed year 1 life...thx to everyone which made this possible...we were all so emo at the last day of sch wasn't we? Coming to the thought that we will be seperated the next year is so depressing. But nevertheless we still see each other in sch and hey we can call each other out anytime yea? Roti prata supper! steady ar!

Exams around the corner...another addition stress...still in no mood to mug...shall start soon...i've stopped training...my dad thinks that i would not be able to coop wif studies if i went training too often...in his eyes i'm like forever a kid who doesnt grow up...well his like this...wat can i do man? Super wanna get balanced on a K boat fast...shall train daily after exams! Rest assure i'll try to self train my fitness...

I have really freaking no idea wats wrong wif my mum...shes always picking a fight nowadays...the other day i was preparing for my oral comm presentation and she came in and asked me to send something to her...i told her i was busy and she got pissed and started screaming...wth...its been like this for 1week plus and every day she comes back screaming at me...i have really fucking no idea wats her problem...i tried explaining the importance of the freaking presentation and she jus said fuck off...which sparked into a fucking long heated arguement between us...

Maybe i should listen to cheryl and buy my mum something she likes to eat when we chill...shall go and try to mug now...Ciao!

K1!

2007-02-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

Speed Through Waves...
Oh man...Finally...after the long wait, hardwork paid off. The Juniors have finally advanced from the T boat to the K boat...and it was damn fun today! Learning to Balance and paddle on the K...spent half the day captsizing along the shore...its like back to basics...learning to get on a racing kayak...wat a day...totally... Such an enjoyable process...The K boat can completely slice through water...with every pull, we go faster and faster...there was like totally zero resistance...wat a boat... super tired...spent like all my energy balancing other than moving haha...balancing seems to be much more tiring than paddling now...my back hurts...argh...can't sit straight...feels like breaking...mus be the captsizing...

Projects still sux to the core...after today, there is going to be less chances for me to go training because exams is like 23RD OF FEB!!! WTH 20DAYS FROM NOW MAN!...I need to study...anyone want to study together? lets rock the final exams!

Look Left, Look Right

2007-02-02T22:11:00.000+08:00

Exams Period...
I can't believe it...exams is jus around the freaking corner again...but i have freaking no mood to study lar...crap...i haven't gymed for 2 weeks...i feel so weak...i hope we get to try the Ks tomorrow...excited and can't wait...Finally left with just Frontpage project and Oral Effective Communications project...but there isn't anytime to rest...I shall not repeat the 1st sem's result...i will score a high GPA! Lets all score together...

I am freaking depressed...thx alot to my frens, particularly cheryl, Pj and justin, thx to pei fen, hui ling, Kc and stacie for helping out in the project...

I was just checking out the timing for the races...so impressive...all the schools...i feel damn slow now compared to the other timings...haix...i shall train hard after exams! Life's Short, Paddle Hard!!

2007 National Canoeing Marathon

2007-01-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

2007 National Canoeing Marathon
I fell in love with today... but in a sense rather disappointed... I'm glad I won the Gold medal for the Novice Category today but the same would not had been applied in the Juniors competition. Based on the timings and positions, I would had came in quite late...maybe the 7-10th or worst position if i had joined the Juniors 22km race...
But then again...maybe if I had joined the Juniors I would had been much more disappointed...

I call for unfairness for Yirui...check out his blog to know more abt his race... Yirui may had been 3rd in the National Juniors category but he had oredi bagged 1st in my eyes if not for the obstacles! Like Yirui, I would like to comment on the T2's performance today! Daniel, Joel, Derek and Darren. They suffered not only the toughest physical challenge but also very though mental challenge. The challenge to give up during the race after their boats went down...But No... They did not give up even after their boat sank... They got back on the boat and finished the race... These are really the true winners in our team... I'm not as strong minded as many of the people in my team and tend to give up easily... If I had been in their position, I might had given up the race. So Daniel, Joel, Derek and Darren...nice race today...lets bag more medals the next time!

The gals in our team did very well today... They all won medals! Jing Ting got a 3rd position in the women's K1 Juniors category, Hsing Yee 1st in Novice category and Anju 2nd in the Novice category. And I saw Violet today...shes my secondary school mate now studying int PJC...she was 2nd in the Women's K2 juniors category... Johnaton won a 6th positon in his Junior's category which was very well done considering he had the most competitive category today...well done to all medal winners!

Finally a great thx to all those who encouraged me and cheered me on today! I really appreciated it!
P.S: Anyone treatin me lunch for bagging 1st?

2007-01-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

A short love story...As simple as this...
>My husband is an Engineer by profession,>I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean>against his broad shoulders.>>>>Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have>to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him >before,>has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness. I am a >sentimental>woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my >feelings,>I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy.>My husband, is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and>the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has >disheartened>me about love.>>>>One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a >divorce.>>>"Why?" he asked, shocked.>"I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!">I answered.>>>He kept silent the whole night,>seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times.>My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can't even>express his predicament, what else can I hope from him?>>>And finally he asked me:" What>can I do to change your mind?" Somebody said it right, it's hard to>change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing>faith in him.>>>Looking deep into his eyes I slowly>answered : "Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my>heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I want a flower located on the>face of a mountain cliff, and we both are>>sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for>me?">>>He said :" I will give you>your answer tomorrow...." My hopes just sank by listening to his response.>>>I wokeup the next morning to find>him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, >underneath>a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes....>>>My dear,>>"I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain>the reasons further..">>>This first line was already breaking>my heart. I continued reading.>>>"When you use the computer>you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the >screen,>I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.>>>You always leave the house keys>behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door>for you.>>>You love traveling but always lose>your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way.>>>You always have the cramps whenever>your "good friend" approaches every month, I have to save my>palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.>>>You like to stay indoors, and I>worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save>my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.>>>You always stare at the computer,>and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so>that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails,and help to remove>those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling>down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand... and>tell you the colour of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your>young face...>>>Thus, my dear, unless I am sure>that there is someone who loves you more than I do... I could not pick>that flower yet, and die.. ">>>>My tears fell on the letter, and>blurred the ink of his handwriting...>>and as I conntinue on reading...>>>"Now, that you have finished>reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for>I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk...>>>I rush to pull open the door, and>saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle>and loaf of bread....>>>Now I am very sure that no one will>ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower>alone...>>>That's life, and love. When one>is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends>to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.>>>Love shows up in all forms, even>very small and cheeky forms, it has never been a model, it could be the>most dull and boring form.. . flowers, and romantic moments are only used>and appear on the surface of the relationship.>>>Under all this, the pillar of true>love stands... and that's our life...>>>>Love, not words win arguments...>>>Anonymous

I'm changing for love...are you? Cheers!!!

Racing against myself

2007-01-23T01:12:00.000+08:00

Time Consuming Factors...
Who said projects was a killer? No it ISNT...now...WHO THE HELL SAID THAT PROJECT MEMBERS ALL CONTRIBUTE AND MAKE LIFE EASIER? I'LL KILL THAT GUY/GAL AND CHOP HIM/HER UP AND DUMB HIM/HER BODY PARTS IN KALLANG RIVER WHEN I GO KAYAKING NEXT TIME!

Ok I'm not saying they are not doing anything because I can see them trying! BUT FOR GOODNESS SAKE LISTEN TO WAT OTHERS HAVE TO SAY...AND THOSE WHO WAN TO SAY SOMETHING JUS SAY IT DAMMIT DUN KEEP QUIET AND LET TIME PASS! I know u are shy and all and timid to say stuff BUT HELL DUN JUS COMPLAINT TO ME AND LET ME SAY IT FOR U...I'M LIKE THE ONE WHO GETS SCOLDED...
Well watever the case is I'm fustrated with myself for not being able to accomodate with everyone and communicate well with my grp members...I do understand the stress level for everyone now is at the max SO AM I GODDAMNIT! So lets just chill stuff and get along till this freaking piece of crappy stress overloading shit is over...I mean we are still frens afterall no need to get worked up over such stuff...JUS EDIT I CAN DO IT LIKE 100000 TIMES NO PROB!

Didnt go for training today...woke up wif a fever...had a few bad days...thurs and fri food poisoning slept for only afew hrs due to projs sat and sun consecutive training in the morning when I jus recovered from food poisoning and tried to push myself to my max but didnt progress well...still losing slp at this hour because of projects but HELL I'M HAVING A GREAT TIME VENDING MY STRESS ON MY BLOG! AND I LOVE IT!

Tests are goner...

2007-01-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

Race Your Heart Out!
Why do we train? Why is it we are toturing ourselves physically & mentally each day by training? What is it that we train for? Do you think u are up to it just by training?

We train for the purpose of winning. We toture ourselves physically & mentally so that we grow stronger each time we hit our limits and our limits extend each time we train. I train to win something in my live, not the medals, not the prize...but the respect I wish to earn, even if I do not win, I won't lose badly. I duno if I'm the winning type, but I won't back down without a good fight! Training thus prepares me.

The marathon is around the corner. I jus returned from training at kallang, overall I was not very satisfied with today's training because I was still unable to give my 100% into it. I think I only did like 70%? Maybe its because I slept at 4am...hmm?Will I be able to do my 100% during the race? I wish I can like go to selektar and train there for at least 1 session to get use to the route there so that I can be mentally prepared. Shall ask Damien abt this.

I'm such a loser. Not the lousiest loser but one of the worst...maybe the nt the last either!(I dun wanna be Last...not auspicious since race is coming!). I'm talking abt my life...Its a mess! Someone asked me to focus on studies rather than other STUFF...My dog's asking me to go out and play wif him-.-...ok i'll go play wif him than study=P...haha...Projects a killer...Econs due next week(70% my part done)...Marketing due next next week(80% overall done!)...crap I'm gona finish all this projects by next week and Econs by Sunday! no joke! Alright all the best Alfred! Oh oh! and er...when will you give me a reply? hope its positive! cya ppl!

Who shall be my Valentine?

2007-01-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

Who Will Be My Valentine?
Today is 14th of January...1mth away is Valentines day...There was one Valentines day I went out wif a bunch of frens and one of the gal was supposed to be my valentine...But we decided to go out wif our frens as a grp 1st so we can enjoy our Valentine later in the evening or smth...But it didn't turn out as we planned...after lunch the grp of us went to K-box and after that the Movies...and then the clique had dinner at Swensens...that's when this fren of my went outside for awhile and came back wif a bouquet of roses and kneel in front of my supposed Valentine and expressed his love...I was stunned as she was...he was a very good fren of mine but i had nvr knew he secretly admired her...although i knew that he had always been very nice to her...i was totally confused at that very moment...wondering what shld i do? what shld i say? what is going to happen? but my expression on face showed only 1 thing...anxiety...wat will my valentine say? will she accept his love? i know her well and in an event like this i know she will try to not let anyone get embarrassed...i knew her answer all along before she spoke...but when she still said those words, i felt like i've been dumped...i thought i was prepared...that she was just acting...but i still couldnt accept the fact that she said:" thank you very much, i appreciate ur love." Those words hit me hard...i half-expected her to reject him...but she didn't...shes too nice to do so...i felt like i'm the one rejected...i've actually planned a romantic evening to spend wif her by the beach...but in the end i told her: sry i'm tired after today, i hope u'll have fun wif him...shall go home now bye!

I ended the day...i didn't have courage to look into her eyes to see it turning red...but i knew her eyes were turning red...i walked away knowing that she replied the guy wif no intention of hurting me...nor did she had intentions to hurt him...but i would had prefered if she had hurt him...that might had made me feel better...SELFISH...tat's wat i am...love is selfish anyway...u need to fight...but then again...i am CHILDISH...does that make my love childish too?

I never contacted that girl again besides seeing her in school and she now oredi has a boyfriend although it isn't the guy who proposed...what would had happened if i had continue to carry the plan that night? well its over and no use thinking of it...A person too nice is wat makes regret painful.

This Year 2007...who will be my valentine? i oredi have one in mind^^! bye!

Days Are Nothing More Than Time

2007-01-09T20:46:00.000+08:00

Pick A Memory & Throw A Nightmare!
Heloooo! Its me again...Alfred! This hopless guy who hasn't been blogging for like ages. Nevertheless I feel like blogging alittle now! Looking back all my life...I still find Secondary School days the best...Wif my grp of friends from secondary school days...The Bballers, the CAB & CPK( chao ah beng & chao pai kias ), those forever wierd attitude+lovely gals, the forever bullying us seniors and of course the teachers who never turned us away nor did they ever gave up and even joined us in certain activities( bball, soccer, frisbee, gaming)! In Final Conclusion! Secondary School Days Rox back then...i have so many regrets up till now...i wish i can relive my life with my current memories & achievements...

Well somethings never change...i wonder wat u are all doing right now?(well looking at this page written by this emo guy of course!) But i really really really wonder what is it you really want to do right now?(close this page and check out other ppl's blog?Dun BE MEAN!) What i wanna do right now is to call someone by the name of God and ask him: Did you ever wished you could relive your life?

I wonder what his answer would be(Of course not! I'm GOD! What more can I ask for?)

For now I'm not really contented with what I have...oh yea...I'm Greedy! What else did you think I was?

I've been dropped out of the Junior's competition for kayaking and put into Novice...
Like HELLO??? WATS THAT?? novice... well its said to have higher chance for winning...i duno maybe its true...maybe i'm not ready who knows? But well 16Km compared to 22Km is definately much easier by 6Km...16Km...hmm I sort of felt relived and at the same time lousy...at least i've completed 16Km in a good timing...i'm like always giving up the last 2 triangles after the 1st 4...no stamina...argh!!!

Tat's all i guess...Elfi's starting to bark and its irritating me...i'm gona BBQ him and have him for Supper...bye!

P.S: I'm freaking hungry thx to some Ass who doesnt want to have dinner wif me!( FEEL BAD ABOUT IT!!! =P )

Special...

2006-12-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

Special Days Are Meant For You...
Chirstmas Day! A day where presents are given & I take all of them! No one takes anything I want and no one should even think abt it! So all your stuff are belong to me! Muhahaha...
Come On Now! Shower me wif all ur presents!

Oh! Death Note 2 is out next week! Cool man...going to catch it wif Crystal hopefully & the best would be wif her Sister too=P! Did I ever mentioned her younger sister was hot? ok Shes Hot! But too young for me...yea! So sad...but hey who knows...she might not think i'm too old for her =P...ok watever...

Goodness 28th Jan is the marathon...And I dun think I am training hard enuff...This Holiday has yet to be meaningful...most of the time would mean me helping out in my mum's shop...total cheap labour! I could only go on trainings like Mon, Weds & Sat...Zzz 24hrs a day is not enuff!!!

Guys pls take note! Enough REST is needed in all kind of activities! Be It study, sports, sex watsoever a reasonable amount of rest is needed!!! So right here i am promoting REST!!! Of course not RIP! But! Enough Rest daily can work wonders! Trust me!

Rain

2006-12-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

Look Its Rain!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HabY6kxyMNg&mode=related&search=My favourite Rain's song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D93MJuqzFCU&mode=related&search= Rain Can Dance!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1XmI-ct31Y&mode=related&search= Lee Hyori & Rain Dances...!

Rain is going to have his concert in SG soon...totally can't wait!

Once Lost can never be replaced

2006-12-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

Once Lost Can Never Be Replaced...
Ok 1st thing 1st...GO TO THIS WEBSITE!...http://lost-sparky.blogspot.com/
If you have seen him around the East Part of Singapore! Please Contact Emily at 96580958

Next! GO TO THIS WEBSITE!...http://mistressmissyme.livejournal.com/
I currently owe my Elder sister lots of money so i'm suppose to repay her by posting her E-shop here...anyway there are alot of pretty stuff for gals! Guys can buy these stuff for ur gals! Do check them out and contact her if u have interest in any of them...Or contact me if you cant get her...btw her e-shop is linked as "Exquisite Accessories"!

Now! GO TO THIS WEBSITE!...http://simplyshoes.blogspot.com/
OK...this website belongs to Justin...he seems to have designed some nice looking shoes using white shoes which we use to wear to secondary school...however he is not the 1st haha! But well his designs are not bad and there are really SOME master pieces surprisingly haha! But nevertheless check it out and u might find something good yea?

Tat's all for today...will blog again soon! BYE!

Refreshing!

2006-11-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

First Thing To Address
Been alittle while since I last wrote something on this almost decayed yet looks old blog.
First thing to address,
New Anime Out! Check it out guys! D. Gray-man
latest episode is 9...search for it on YouTube. Its a fighting anime based on the Bible.

My Mum has finally had full ownership of the pet shop! Much thx to my super hardworking and innovative dad's support( physically and psychologically+mentally), my super smart+glib talking sister and of course the super passionate and sweet talker me!(customers will never buy the product if I dun sweet talk=P!)

You won't believe how much my dad has shown his love and affection for my mum...He is no doubt the most tired person in my family at the end of the day... having to go to work at 8am then go to my mum's shop to help at arnd 5 all the way till 11pm + giving and showing my mum all the support he can...he is termed in the current generation "SUPERMAN!"
No mistake to be my mum's hero. Presenting the ONE and ONLY SUPERDAD!(Gee i gotta learn a few tricks from him!)

Well I totally wish "Towkay" all the best in managing her pet shop and hope the shop blooms and expands over the year...no doubt i will also be giving all i can to help out! You Go MUM!

Kayaking...
Wow I totally agree that my strength has improved and i look much better than before...but i'm like seriously unable to understand WHY AM I GETTING SLOWER? Gosh everyone is improving tremendously on waters but i'm like the guy thrown far off behind...Derek i can say is definately faster than me already...its gona be a matter of time before Darren and Daniel + Melvin catches up too...
Yi Rui says tat I'm too mentally weak...His theory: When you see the guy in front u have no determination to over take him tat's why you are slowing down and he gains even further distance. Dun care abt him jus overtake!
Well...I guess its no harm listening to people who are better...i'll try out this sat yea?

Sch? Project? ICA? Lectures?
This stuff really sux...but...what do you know? i've found some interesting stuff in them^^!

Sch: Its feels good sometimes to be back in school, at least i get to see my classmates and spend on the cheaper food in the school rather the stuff like $5 outside!!!

Project: GOODNESS I'M WIF PEIFEN FOR ALMOST ALL THE PROJECTS AGAIN~!!! Ok...maybe its not that bad...she seems to be much mre hardworking than the 1st semester...Quote by Clement...haha seems i'm doing something good=P

ICA: haha nth to say abt this...it really sux...but then again...it makes me study hard for it Which is totally better than not studying through out the whole sem! aha ok that's something good!

Lecture: Oh FOR GOODNES SAKE! LECTURES ARE LIKE F******* BORING...But HEY!!! LOOK ITS BALDY BADRI!!! haha I'M A GOOD STUDENT! I like address him as BBAD! Sounds so much better...the B infront of Bad means BALDY! haha...its a freaking entertaining lecturer from heaven...send from the sacred land to enlighten us with his high IQ jokes which will take like 30sec to think before we fully understand...maybe he wants us to think till we are bald like him...gee...who knows?

Oh and 1 more thing abt the lecture...MY LECTURE IS FILLED WIF PRETTY GALS! ARE YOURS? MUHAHAHAHA! Come on tag me and say u are jealous!!!

Haha Haven't wrote for a long time and when i let everything out seems to be quite a Long Entry huh? Cheers Ppl! Till Next Time!

My Dog!

2006-11-23T19:50:00.000+08:00

This Is My Dog! Elfi!

Ace

2006-10-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

Starts the day...
Everytime in the morning...when ur alarm clock rings, ur mum gets u off bed, ur dog licks u in the face( tat is in my case!) or when u falls off the bed and wakes up...what is the very first thing u will tink of? Do u dread the day? Do u rather stay in bed and go back to slp? Or would u start the day off wif a smile?

I would had start the day off smiling at myself in the mirror thinking of how to make my day a good one...planning to have a great time in school or out...but it is WOULD...its past now...

Hey guys...those who asked me to go out and stuff...i'm so sorry i didnt make it...i'll be true to u...its not because i wanna avoid u or anything...its just that i'm short of cash...
pls understand it takes me a lot of courage to tell you this...i am having difficulty wif cash...so yea...but dun ask me questions abt it can? All i can say is i'm not doing very well...

Well i had to go help out in my mum's shop today and met quite a few cute dogs...but hell some of them bites and their teeth were like nails...at the end of the day...I still find my dog the Cuttest+Hottest haha...say hi to everyone Elfi!!! My dog's name is ELFI not ALFI...dun mix my name wif him ok-.-!Zzz...

Wonder how the race at macritchie went...but knowing my captain and jon they would definately give all they got...i'm sure it will be a great experience for everyone in Nyp kayaking...The race will definately show us how the pros does it and definately motivates us to do better...

Slacking...i guess this word might not appear in my dictionary...i will give all i got for every training i attend for kayaking...i know tat i am nt very good...but i will prove that i can do well too...Both in training and in schoolwork...Cheer for me will you?

Prepare for tomorrow...a long day ahead yet the night is young...phew...i'm getting sleepy...
Till next time then...nitex!!!Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHIRLYN!!! KOPI-O gal!

Raining...Paddles...Fails...

2006-10-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

Blog?
HeLo? Yea its Me again...Alfred...The Guy...
OK so watsup?Hmm...i'm like really busy for the past few weeks...sch's started and stuff...and i cant stay up all night to blog cox if i dun have enough slp...my temper can get really bad...Now...u dun wan to be wif some guy wif low blood pressure and a really mean temper in class or Out right? So yea...its gona be a peek-a-boo on when i'm gona blog abt stuff...

Now Lets start...hmm...today was the worst training ever...Kallang was in a HUGE mess...Leaves,dirt,currents,rain,lightning,thunder....And On top of that...there was no movtivation around...i felt like i stood no chance against my team mates...might as well try though...but seriously i guess everything went wrong...I dun mind taking the S1 seriously...but hell wat was the darn problem?i still dun know...I guess i am pretty pissed wif myself today after the training...wats wrong today??

Why was it that i can't push myself and do better?...i cant find this watever "motivation" thing in myself...Isnt it suppose to come from the Team??? And it seems my team is getting smaller...I'm not happy to see it shrink...will anyone else leave us next???...I tink it might be me...If this team is going to leave me behind...i will not progress...thus i won't see a point in staying and being a hindrance to others...i guess many might think like me...

To Sky...maybe kayaking is not really the sport u can do well in...but dun give up on other stuff...i wish u all the best and success in watever u do...I'm still ur friend in watever times...though sometimes i get pissed easily by ur words and i threw my temper alittle...i apologise for it...but be sure not to forget me as a friend...

Man...I'm getting pretty sad and pissed right now...No longer have any mood to blog...but i wish everyone else A happy day tomorrow after a good night's slp...nitex!

Pics

2006-10-01T14:34:00.000+08:00

I've Found Pics!

The Day Ended Off...Sentosa Trip for NYP Kayaking!

Rain it down...

2006-10-01T13:39:00.000+08:00

As it rains...the chilly wind blows...
Yesterday...was saturday...training as usual...there was a feeling in me that I shouldnt turn up...but well...it wasnt so bad after all...

Heys capt...abt wat u said on Friday...yea...if u didnt say i will not really know because i thought it was alright all along...well...i will do my best abt it...But it takes time!Thx!

Looking at it from an angle it seemed like a day...but the truth is...it was a nightmare...

Coach said i wasnt doing my best yesterday because i wasnt closing up the gap wif joel...truth is i was pretty much stopped by the freaking dragon boats alot of times...but i guess it isnt an excuse since joel did stop for a minute to drink water...but then again...i didnt drink anywater for the 4 Triangles...ARGH!!! EXCUSES! ALL GOOD FOR NOTHING CRAP~! Ok! No matter wat the case is i'm gona do my best the next training...I've found my motivation in Joel and Yirui...After much thought...the thought of catching up with them...paddling with them side by side...it all seems like a dream...

Hmm...i support Derek's Black and Red design for the jersey! In addition the Logo in Gmail's photos would be nice to be on the front!

I've Finish watch the Animes, Blood +(ep50) and Ouran High School Host Club(ep26)...both had satisfying endings... guys interested in animes should check out these two animes! Dun just stick to Naruto and Bleach Or Gundam...watch them too! they are great! YouTube is the best place! no need freaking downloads! Also check out KIBA!

Hmm...I wanna watch DOA! Stay Alive! Rob-B-Hood! Haha...Lets hang out sometimes!

Those hunks and babes having ur Promos,N-lvl,End Of Year,O-lvls! ALL THE BEST! ITS HERE AND WILL BE GONE! GIVE IT ALL YOU GOT! You have only one chance to score so take it and SCORE!

When chances are here its hard to be missed...Aim...Go...Score...and end it off with a loud BANG just like how it started!

Haha...You won't believe this...i'm sick again....Thx rain! Lol...cya people! And thx for cheering me on^^!!! You have a place in me! Bye!
Nani Mo Kowakunai! Mou Osorenai!

It doesnt matter how it started...it only matters on how you want to end it!

Once There Was A Boy...

2006-09-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

Once There Was A Boy...
Many things has happened...very sad and unhappy stuff...it was pretty demoralising and crashing my mood most of the time...No matter i still did my best to try and be cheerful around people...because i dun wan them to be like me...it feels HORRIBLE to be like me at the moment...

One Sad Boy...Disappointed...Demoralised...Spirit Drowning...Mood Crashing...PISSED!

I thought i would finally be able to post some pics on my blog...but well...guess i pissed gen off again...no matter...i'll try to find some other ways then...

Disgusted by words...annoyed by feelings...

I have no say...i have no rights...i havent even said anything and i was shut...i havent even done anything and i was shunned...

But above all...i want to thank Crystal(the Best) ...Vannessa(the Longest)...Yirui(the toughest)...Derek(the great)...Joel(the fastest)...Skye(the Buddy)...Jeremy(the missing)...Johnathon(the Man) and so on...to those who had listened to me...beared wif my complaints...had fun with me...and ultimately cared for me...You mean alot to me...Thank You! If i havent mentioned you above...it doesnt mean i'm not thankful(i cant possibly fill my blog wif all NAMES!!)...

I wun say wat has happen...i dun need to say...and i dun want to say...because those who knows will understand...those who doesnt can find out...and those who dun care...get lost!

The race has just begun...the end is not near...i've bought new shoes to compete...new bag to carry my load...new clothes to win wif glory...and a new attitude to share my victory...Pray that i see you in the finishing line...

And thus...we shall see this boy write once more when time comes...Cya...
One Sad Boy Looking For One Big Change...

The Day After Sentosa

2006-09-22T15:44:00.000+08:00

The Day Was Great With You...
Yes You! All Of you from Kayaking! Hahax...Sentosa was GREAT yea? So much fun I had with the team...practically HIGH yesterday hahax...

The only thing I regret was not putting enough Sunblock on my skin...Gosh I AM TOO DARK...screw...we go sentosa to tan wat-.-??? Arg...maybe i should go try the OLAY UV stuff...haha...Aloe Vera doesnt seem to be working well on my skin now...hmms...

So darn sad sia...I wasnt able to throw Anju into the waters...derrick,joel,jeremy blah blah all suceeded in throwing Gen and Hsing Yee and Julyn and blah blah...gee only i failed>.<...but i hope u girls werent mad at us k? Just having fun^^! And we all were going to get WET anyway...Just the matter of time hahax...

The Food was great! Baked Potatoes + tuna from Joel was my Favourite lolx! practically aimed those! And I cant believe the drinks finished up so quickly lolx...shall bring more on the next occasion...

Heys I would really wanna comment on Damien's Dare...practically hilarious...but i admire his courage to do it...(cox I wouldnt dare to do it)...Nice one Capts!(He was dared to lie down beside an indian guy face to face and smile at him for 3 Secs...Man U TRY TO DO THAT!) Darn should've brought my camera...then i'll be able to upload pics lolx...maybe I go steal from Gen hahax!!!

Alright! till next time! Shall blog again Pretty Soon!
Was it right for me to love you? How do we define Wrong?

I Wanna Ask You Out! Yes You!

2006-09-17T20:49:00.000+08:00

A bunch of rubbish waiting to be cleared...
We humans are creatures of habit. We do pretty much the same things every day, because it is comfortable to stay within our "comfort zone." It is comfortable to remain essentially unchallenged on a day to day basis, mindlessly performing the same tasks.Dare to question the reasons for your actions. Identify those things that are truly important to you. Challenge yourself. Do something different. Interrupt your thought patterns. Think.The infinite power that lies within you, is ... you.Change begins today. Change your mental outlook, engaging in "possibility thinking." Change your body. Take action. Change your life.Yes, you can

-Taken from Nyp Kayaking Blog Posted by the capt!
Yea i find this quote really interesting...it is suppose to motivate us...Well it did teach me a thing or two...

Haha! Yesterday went out wif my two lovely "wives" from sakae sushi...Sabrina and Kwee Gek(Jade), Been a long time since we last met up...had some real fun hahax^^! Went to Yuki & Yaki to have Buffet after training with them...hmms nt bad hahax ate ALOT lolx...but i had my lunch earlier so didnt really concentrate on wat i was eating hahax...Went on to watch The Banquet( Sab wanna watch-.-) But seriously was a DEEP show not easy to understand...basically is abt a plot by the different powers of the palace to succeed the throne...lots of scandal and conspiracy...but seriously DRAGGY & LONG...people like me dun really enjoy it lolx...thx to Sabrina lar hahax...(but i dun think she understood wat it was showing either hahax!) Anyway we went to Esplanade after that wif Kwee Gek to return her Due Library books-.-(abit lame lolx she carried the books wif her till nite then return hahax) Being wif them is really nice and fun...but seriously cant meet up wif them so often lolx...(And btw they both told me tat they used me to break up wif their boyfriend-.- now i'm in big trouble! the whole Heeren Sakae Sushi crew hates me lar!) Ricky! if u ever come across my blog read this: I HAD NOTHING TO DO WIF YOUR BREAK UP! I wasnt talking to Sabrina on the freaking train! It wasnt me!!! Seriously Innocent!!!

OK that was yesterday!
Today! Hmm...Went out wif Vannessa my classmate for 10years!(some peope call it fate i simply call it unlucky!) Hahax joking! Went to watch John Tucker Must Die! Heys this is a seriously NICE NICE SHOW lolx...the next big college movie after Mean Girls! Seriously recommand all of you to go watch! In Fact i dun mind watching it again hahax! Van mus be happy now cox she didnt spent a single cent-.- and i jus realised it myself Lolx! Gee guess its fine lar dun get to go out wif her often anyways! Had a really nice chat wif her abt life...gee she's got a wierd thing for guys...Boys who likes her are disgusting to her...and she wans boys to be the ones she WOOs! Not the one wooing her-.-? i was like HUH?? Wierd lolx! Ok lar different people different ways of living their lives...
Me for example...pretty simple: Be nice to me and i might fall for you! haha...
Some people were pretty shock of my critieria of a girlfriend-.-?? Watever Lolx!

Now i find that being nice to some people are just not worth my time...in the end they might shun you...isolate you or even define you as a jerk! Nice people are HARD to come by and if you start being MEAN to NICE people...u gona get it from them! Though I may be much more forgiving than others...but...We all have a limit to being NICE! I'm saying this because my friend has jus suffered from this MEAN people...worst is that its someone she likes...poor girl haix...She is now an example i shall nt follow...guess i shall not fall too deep in being nice!!!

Hmm...I seriously wonder...if i had oredi fallen too deep in the well till i cant get out...my fren's answer to me is: No matter how deep a well you can still get out when the water level rises...(said in chinese!)
Yea i get the point...and he has pretty much enlighten me in alot of stuff...i appreciate him alot! Life is never boring but filled with excitment, it only matters on how you find the excitement! Desire can seal your fate, but you can be fated with desire...Wise Talk hahax...

Shall end here...people...take care of yourself yea? till next time! BYE!
Shall it end here? Or should I carry on being a fool? When I already know I am the greatest fool...

sometimes i just wish that you would dissapear!

2006-09-12T20:36:00.000+08:00

Gee...Sorry!
Heys...I've been kind of sick recently...yesterday was the very 1st time i went to see a doctor by myself...haha...i know you might think: "Gosh this guy is 17 and its the 1st time he went to see a doc by himself? PAMPERED!..." Gee no...i had a phobia of docs since i was small-.-...scared of needles...scared of the scapels...afraid that doctors will say: " You cant eat Chocolate! You cant drink coke! NO ICE-CREAM!" Cox everytime the doctor instructs something to my mom/grandmom/sis/dad(or whoever brings me!) They really do it! Its like 1 week without my favourite stuff...that's why i hate to see a doctor...

But yesterday...I went alone...Fear grew inside me when i 1st alighted from bus infront of jurong polyclinic...what should i do??? Stepped inside...a nurse(she came with a smile!) came up to me a asked me to register at a counter...well pretty glad it wasnt that bad after i registered...but when i looked at the number on top of the door...i was like HELL THERE IS LIKE 60 PEOPLE IN FRONT OF ME?(I expected a long queue but 60 was abit too much)Lolx...i waited for like 30mins and the queue only shortened by 10person...was growing pretty anxious and scared...so i went to the market nearby to have lunch^^!hahax smart me! Had Cheese Prata+Milo Dinosaur!!! DROOL PPL!(ok i shouldnt had eaten that cox my cough got worst!) Was back in 30mins but was pretty glad to see that there were only 10 person left...then i figured that the number wasnt going by sequence-.-!(gee...so much for the smart me...)

The wait whereby you know it was gona be you soon was SO DARN LIKE HELL! But...i kept my mind wondering of nurses....was wondering how are Gen Anju and Nadz doing with their attachment...are they like the nurses in Jurong Polyclinic? Are they good? Maybe next time I might be their patients^^!(I hope they are good when they handle me though...i dun wanna die young...And then my number FLASHED across the board...
Pulse abnormal! Breathing rate increasing! Andrenaline level rising! Ok! i was just scared-.-...Knocked the door and went in...

My first impression of the doctor-> a guy wearing specs with a wierd hairstyle+a facial mask= TWIT!
But when he spoke! An air of confidence can be sensed...
Doc: Alfred! So tell me, what buisness do you have for me?
His got a way with words haha...so i proceeded to explain what was wrong...Cough, Flu, Fever, Headache, Stomach ache, muscle fatique( i couldnt move and had to rest on my bed during sat thx to this and fever+headache!)...Hmm...got out of the room and went to queue up for my medicine again...another long wait lolx...then went to the referral room to collect my referral date to NUH for something...19 Oct..gee...sian...and looked at the time...SHIT! GONA BE LATE FOR TRAINING=15X2 PUSH UP! 1st thing to do! SMS DAMIEN! muhahaha...then went home to collect my stuff and rushed to training!

Hmm Training~
Reached at 6.15...saw the team running down the slope and thought they going to run the campus route so i rushed to change my shoes and tried to catch up with them...gee...never thought that cough can affect your run so badly...in the end I jogged really slowly till back the stadium and into the blocks...thought it was kind of wierd how come they never run pass me or something and when i got back to the stadium the 2nd time Skye and Yirui told me they ran the industrial area-.-...craps...lolx waited for them to be back...hahax so glad to see a team like yesterday...so many people i missed! But sort of wasnt in the mood to talk too much...maybe cox i am sick haha....But i was really really happy to see all of you^^! Pulls ups...KILLER! was trying to do as standard as i could but...still had to kick lolx...Back training as expected...gosh was damn embarassing i did wrongly for demo Lolx...i forgot to keep my back straight cox i was looking at jing ting...crapped!

OK! TEAMMING WITH JOHNATHON WAS HELL! EXCRUCIATING PAIN AND STRAIN! Oh...well...it was pretty much effective though lolx! still feeling the pain since morning...PHEW!
Capt Damien always says:" Don't be afraid of the pain! Cox it means that you are improving! So don't deny pain!"
Yea his got a point...and i hope so!
To Daniel and Derrick: "THX Ar"..."VERY VERY NICE JOKE"..."HA" "HA" "HA"...in the gym room-.-...Zzz...i dun mind you joke abt me but, dun anyhow tease others they might not like it!...Gona give you that WTF sign next time!
Lolx the WTF sign Trend in the team is growing! must learn to use it! WTF WTF WTF! haha...LAME!

Ok...pretty tired... the med is making me drowsy again...anyway 9am tomorrow kallang! And results for the 1st sem for Buisness courses will be out at 6am tomorrow...be sure to check! ok bye!
Sorry...So sorry I made your day miserable...I tink i did...

Anime

2006-09-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

Ouran High School Host Club~!
Anyway People check out this cool Anime On You Tube...Girls will like it better though i think...Guys will find it Hilarious! hahax...I'm totally addicted to it at the moment^^!

Nw...Joel intro-ed a game to me named Space Cowboy! Hahax pretty cool MMORPG/FPS game with a touch of Future Technology...u get to fly a Battle Plane and go shooting bad monsters or Duel with other people using some advance stradegy! So Polish your Gears and fill the sky with Flames!

Jammed...Hmm...Still sick at the moment...I find that I waste more energy on coughing than on kayaking yesterday Lolx...Guess its no use going training and overstraining myself after all...Must learn to take care of my body in order to give the maximum output!!! Heard that Coach is coming down next week during one of the land training...wonder if its true...Damien says tat if you want to impress coach you better be around(haha wat a line to call ppl come down but its pretty logical!) Well...Impress coach huh? Not my kind of thing to do lolx...I just hope he won't give us a hard time when he comes down...*Prays*!

U know? Tonight is Club Momo Underage Party...So sad I last minute got something On and couldn't go...well...I've been quite grounded for going Out almost EVERYNIGHT! The curfew thingy is back...be home by 10! -.- Oh pls! gime a break! its HOLIDAY OK! guess i better get a job fast then i can excuse and run amok! hahax...but if i get a job i'll be like so damn tired and i'm not sure if i can make time for training...hmm...any Job Offers for me?

Signing Off early today...So darn tired...Practically slacked today off...hmms...Good Night everyone...
I Need To Read Your Mind! What were you thinking? Bold? Fun? Crazy?Guess it doesnt matter to me...Take Good Care ok?

YOSH!

2006-09-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

The Day Of Illness...
Gee...was pretty sick today for the whole day...after training went home took some panadol and dropped on the bed for 5hrs straight before my dad woke me up for dinner lolx...

Well Seems that my training for the past few days has paid off^^! Coach said that my strokes improved from last week! Hahax...ok shant Fly yet! But i know my wings are growing! lolx...watever...Cant believe i still had energy to kayak despite being pretty sick for the day lar...Body too Heaty...gotta cut down on spicy stuff huh? Any advise on wat to eat or drink for heaty body? Anyone?

Argh...U gain something, You lose something...U get praised by coach for improvement,You lose ur health for it...U eat some good food, You lose the money u could actually spend on other stuff...You offer to do something nice for ppl, They take advantage of it...U like someone and tried to keep quiet abt it, she will nvr get to know how you feel...U like someone and told abt it, she thinks u are crazy! Sounds like opportunity cost from MicroEconomics huh? hahax...OK a load of rubbish to you...but its meaningful to me!

Hmm...seems that Raku Zen has yet to call me for the job yet...guess i might just go back to Sakae to work since my mom said that they need people...5.50/6? argh...Live with it lar...i need cash lolx!

Haha i wanna blog abt Gen now! Asked her abt her attachment experiences personally today...guess wat was the answer i got back?"There are many different kinds of them to see! Different colours,Infected ones, blah blah blah...!" GROSS! If you know wat i mean, U'll know wat i mean...if you don't u might wanna ask Gen and see if she will tell hahax...Yea i know its nature but...hell when i think abt it...its pretty much freaks me out! Wonder how the other nurses are doing...are they like doing the same stuff as Gen or much more gross OR more fortunate? hmms...beats me...

Gosh i tink i'm gona rest early today...freaking strengthless and sleepy...fever is gone but the headache is still there lar...Pls let me get better!!! Alright...tat's all for today! BYE!

I ask you a favour...to make things better...to lighten my load...to end my suffering...to make me feel loved...

Taggers...sux

2006-09-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

I'm Sick! Kallang was cold today lolx...down with a cold...darn!
Heys...I would like to address something 1st...I did not tag as aldred,affred or watever shit in Anju's blog...if you believe me thx! If you don't well u can leave this blog as of now!Shoo! Thx!

Yea i know peeps are just having fun tagging using similiar names as me...but people...do have a limit k? I'm not pissed with you tagging but I'm pissed with people thinking its me even though i swore it isnt me! Those are the people i am pissed with...

They just think I'm so lame to play with myself on someone's tagbox...I might as well play in my own tagbox lar why other's? Cant you just THINK??? Use your head! The superior being gave u a head to think! Its not for u to use it like Zidane! If I did tag I'll own up but why the hell didnt I own up? Because I DIDNT! Those people don't even Tag like me! Their names dun Spell like mine! They have got nth I have(who knows?Just a guess!)! So friends THINK! If up to this point u believe me I'll thank you very much(might treat you lunch someday^^)! If u still don't(if u haven't read the 1st-2nd paragraph) SCRAM...I dun have friends like you!

Yea that's just enough I'm gona say abt the tagging!...Now moving on to chalet and teacher's day!

Yeps The chalet was fun! yeps! 100%! all HUNKS no strange creatures from venus! Fantastic! Swensen,Edmund,HockYong,Kenny,WeiXiang,ChoonNgee and Me! Actually went to downtown east to get something for a teacher but couldnt find so yea just enjoyed the chalet wif the ex-Hua Yi ppl! ALL boys! SO? BOYS DO WAT THEY WANNA DO WIF NO RESTRICTIONS FROM THEIR GALS(most of them are attached)! We DOTAed! We BBQ! We POKERed! We POOLed! We GAMEed! We WATER-BOMBed(crap this part I Kana the most time!!Even got saboed to test the Ice water bomb!)! We EYE-CANDIED(HOLY SHIT I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO SAY THAT IN CASE THEIR GALS COME SEE =X)! This is one of the Best chalet for males ever! well yea i do admit there is a lack of femine irritation in the air and sort of uncomfortable! Oh well make do lar! Since there isnt a lack of pretty gals in the enviroment(just SEE,no TALK!) Yeps it was only 1 night and the Next morning I left for Hua Yi cox ITS TEACHERS DAY EVE!

Reached Hua Yi at like 10am? 1st teacher i saw! Mdm Fong! Gosh she still looked so pale...heard she got a operation or something...but I can still sense an air of confidence from her everytime she speak...Gee...pretty much miss the days when I get disciplined by her lolx...And beside her was Ms Sally Pang! My Bio-killer! Lolx she has this special powers to make us come for her remedial classes horx?Then i saw Miss Lui! My consecutive PE and History teacher for many years! Hahax turned out I was the one who scored Better in her History Olvl-B4 wah lao that means the rest like get c5 c6 d7 e8? gosh! hopes the juniors can bark up wif history! its not tat difficult lar hahax! Then i saw Mrs Xiao! The always patient and nice Math Teacher! Thx to her I scored B3 for Math can! hahax she still look so nice and cool! Searched the whole staff room for Ms Loke my cute cute cute chinese teacher...but in the end my teacher told me she retired...haix sad lar...and Finally Mr Lee! Haha the Super Sporting and Nice guy from outer space!(he cant be from earth! just too nice!) I find Mr Lee still the Best loved teacher around...student councellors water bombed him around the whole school that day hahax! Mr Lee can Teach! can Kick(soccer)! can Talk(lots of jokes and stories to share) and lots of amazing stuff to make us learn his Chemistry! hahax My Chem got A2! Together with Bio!

Yeps that's abt Teacher's day eve!

Ok...Here is a Disaster I caused...I'm so sorry to everyone of my class man! the Marina South Steam Boat was too last minute planned cox it just came to my mind to celebrate teacher's day for Eddie Yeo on Wednesday...In the End it was cancelled cox many couldnt make it...hahax...only Arwin Emily and me turned up...so we decided to go Plaza Sing to chill instead...Emily wanna go eat Cafe Cartel...I was like ok since i nvr eat before why not go try? and then i saw the Pricing...er...ok alittle didnt expected but well I ordered myself a pasta and ate mostly bread hahax...The total Bill was $50 for the 3 of us...well seems pretty reasonable? i duno u decide! Hahax...At PS i learned that there is much more than just shopping from Arwin and Emily...they brought me to this shop which i thought only sold mattress...its spot(something?) i forgot lolx...Many Fun stuff inside huhx?...Discovered PS to be more than just a Movie and Arcade Place lolx...

Alright its Late...gona go slp soon...in fact pretty sick at the moment...hope i get better tomorrow and go Kayaking again! Nitex everybody!
Under the same Moon, I pray for you...Under the same Star, I wish for you...Under the same Sun, I watch over you...Under the same Sky, what would you do?

The No activity day!

2006-08-29T10:44:00.000+08:00

GOOD MORNING PEOPLE!
Its 10.45am in the morning in Jurong West Street 42!
Geee couldnt find any senior to go down to kallang to kayak today so i decided its time to take a rest at home...NOT! I'll be looking for some stuff to do later...hmm...maybe go and visit the Nurses-to-be,Gen,Anju,Nadz,Shirlyn^^!Or maybe go back secondary school to help in preparation of teacher's day...ok i'll see how hahax!

Yea! ok,yesterday's Sea training at kallang wasnt a waste! Only 3 person were there! Wensheng Yirui and ME! yea...since wensheng's partner didnt come down...he couldnt train on a K2...and so he decided to train on a K1...and while he was tired and slacking,me and yirui also grew tired of kayaking in a T1...and so? guess wat happened? HAHA yea Yirui and me tried the K1 on! Yirui was fast can-.-? he just hopped on the K1 and VOOM gone...didnt even have time to captsize-.-...he kayaked 1 big round came back and said: hey alfred u try!
Yea so of course i tried.One moment i was balancing near the shore...the next moment the kayak drifted out to the sea...and the 3rd moment i paddled Back to shore in panick...Then did i realise that i actually just rowed a K1-.-! WOW! and out of the excitement i captsized on the shore...crap!Leme tell u! The K1 is FUN! yea its pretty unstable but once u got the hang of it! u dun wanna go back on a T hahax!yea so me and yirui kayaked on the K afew more times and wensheng took back control of it hahax...left Kallang at 12pm as yirui's dad came while we hitched a ride to Suntec! wensheng said: Yirui dad's car was so comfortable that i didnt want to get out! Yea i do agree lolx!

Yups so was at Suntec for Lunch...Subway! Eat Healthy Eat Fresh! But the Roast Beef sort of Suck! i couldnt taste the freaking beef all i tasted was VEG! EEW! And went to the New Balance shop to check out running shoes! i suddenly found out i have lots of things to buy! Running shoes, Glove, wet shoes, A new Bag, A Paddle! those things add up are like = $1000! ok so i'm gona work and buy them! at 3pm yesterday went to Sushi Teh for an interview! U know wats their pay? $6/hr weekdays $8/hr weekends! COOL RIGHT? yea but i dunno if i will be selected...i did wrote 6mths sakae sushi service crew for the past year employment! guess i might stand a chance hahax!

Reached NYP at 4pm...pretty tired...eyes closing...and i slept on the bench just outside the clubroom to wait for Damien...he came at 5.45Pm...went inside to the clubroom to slack and wait for others to come...smsed some ppl asking if their coming...haix...all said not coming...in the end only Damien,Jing Ting,Yirui,Joel and Me trained...Light weights...Joel's doing new stuff...learned quite abit from him hahax...OH! and joel! i bet he was born to Spite me in every angle! i was doing 43kg for the cable and he was the next...he pulled one and said: too heavy! the next thing he did was increase the weight to 50+kg...Wth...and while i was doing dumb bell he said Wow big muscles i think ur's is bigger than mine! and he flexed his...which is like NICER AND BIGGER THAN MINE-.-!! whatever weight i do he does more-.- he is there to spite me lar!! argh! JOEL! i swear i am gona beat u one day!!! u wait!!! hahax...

OK a pretty long post today...guess its time to go decide wat to do...ciao!

One day it was fine and Sunny...the Next day it was Sad and Stormy...Today is up to you to decide my Day...

NYP KAYAKING!

2006-08-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

Alright!NOW ITS TIME!
Its time to train hard for Kayaking! Heard from coach yesterday that there is a 28km race for kayaking in January!! Man 28km...sounds tough? well nothing is too tough for Alfred with determination! I've decided to go kayaking Sea training at least 3 times a week! But well...dun quite tink i might be able to go Land training cox i might be working in the afternoon or evening lolx! Anyway still looking for a job...my holiday is until 15 Oct man! Cool man got like 1 and half months to Rot...nah alfred wun rot...his got hell lots of activities! Chalet! Kakaking! Expedition! Kbox! GAMES! A JOB! and blah blah blah! 1 and half month...i wonder how much stuff i can do hmm...

Ok...Nxt week is TEACHER'S DAY! GOOD STUDENTS always celebrate teacher's day dun they? I'm a student but I'm not good so yea...understand? lol...nah i'll be going back to Secondary School and Primary school to visit my OLD Buddies! and of course my mentors hahax! anyway planning a steamboat nite out for our Favourite nyp lecturers of BM0612! Like Eddie Yeo, Damien Lee, Peter Goh...hahax! thinking of ways to get in contact wif them at the moment! think Arwin's got Eddie Yeo's Number! hmm...so yea Class of BM0612! lets get together and celebrate Teacher's day for Our Nyp lecturers! Yea? its gona Be FUN! alright!

Hmm...Still pretty worried abt my papers...think i gona flunk my Accounts...walked out of the examination hall RIGHT after i finished the paper cox i thought that there is nth i can check since there isnt a question i understood! and i wrote lots of rubbish on the papers...Gee i just got reminded...i wanted to draw a: NO WALKING SIGN FOR FEMALE LECTURERS WITH HIGH HEELS! they made hell lots noise with their heels man...clock clock clock...NOISY! but i really really think i did pretty badly for my papers...hope that i can at least have a bother line pass...haix...i guess its no use crying over spilled milk...just wish that the markers are blind! lolx!

OK...SOMEONE SAID MY BLOGS LACK PICTURES...
yea i know that seriously-.- but i still havent found a way to upload pics into my Laptop yet since all of them are in my phone and this laptop doesnt have BlueTooth...+ i dun have a USB cable...tsk tsk...guess i'll buy a USB memory card reader or sumthing...
So yea i'll be uploading pictures asap! but i doubt i'll be in any of them since i'm the camera guy most of the time lolx!

OK...gona enjoy my holidays! will blog if something REALLY interesting happens yea? till then! byebye~!
I DID NOT TAG AS ALDRED IN ANJU'S BLOG! STOP ACCUSING ME...GETTING PISSED K!
Time's passed...i've been floating around aimlessly hoping u will stop me...u never came and i continue floating...

After Exam Depression!

2006-08-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

AED ITS GONA START SOON!
AED? wats that? it stands for AFTER EXAM DEPRESSION! its like a natural disaster! wat does it do? it practically destroys ALFRED'S CONFIDENCE LEVEL! i've been like having since the 1st exam i had in pri1 -.-...lame? no its totally TRUE! BELIEVE ME! I'VE EXPRIENCED IT FOR THE PAST 10 YEARS! so wats it like? I FEEL SO SCARED THAT I WONT PASS A SINGLE PAPER FOR MY EXAM...I'M GONA FAIL AND DROP OUT OF SCH! gee it happens all the time...but i'm glad! why? cox i got a BLOG TO VENT the stuff in me...

After friday my last paper i believe AED is gona start...serious! PLSPLSPLSPLSPLS dun blame me if i dun talk to anyone...i will be the ANTI SOCIAL guy u see around...u'll practically think i'm some proud guy who tinks he owns the world if u duno me well or havent read this post...so yea bear wif me k? AND A BIG SORRY IN ADVANCE!

gee...shouldnt be blogging at this moment but i musT blog! why? simple: BACK BY DEMAND! yea...i know my blog aint popular or famous or watever but it seems some ppl are actually interested to read huh? man its a big motivation for me cox i know ppl wanna know abt my LIFE~! cool yea? friends like u ppl! where can i find^^!

OKok down to some serious matter...hmm...recently i've havent been talking to most ppl in my class: i'm sorry abt it k! i didnt have the time to talk! BUT! pls be assured that: u ppl will still be the best ppl of class BM0612 in my life^^! BM0612 forever!

Yea ok! so wats wif alfred? well he WILL BE IN HIS WORST AND BADDEST AND MEANEST MOOD of the year due to a few reasons!
NUMBER 1) AED!
NUMBER 2) $!
NUMBER 3) Some People are making me pissed E.g some lecturers!
NUMBER 4) Gals are here for a reason->make u pissed without knowing it!
NUMBER 5)Those reasons above are enuff to make him pissed!

ok! WAIT there's someting new huh? NUMBER 4) gals are here for a reason -> make u pissed without knowing it!
ok...not all gals lar! just some...wat do i mean by it?
1-> they do things u wished they had nvr done be4!
2-> u wished that u werent there when they did those stuff!
3-> u feel bad they did it yet it isnt ur fault and u get pissed with yourself...

Practically Cool? yea true...in fact i think there is something seriously wrong wif me...i'll get straight to the point-> I DUN HAVE THE LOVE FEELINGS AROUND GIRLS ANYMORE...as in its like i use to have tis little feelings of crush here and there...or my heart skips a beat if i see someone whos HOT...but nowadays when i see REALLY REALLY HOT GALS! i will take a look and hope that some past feelins will appear...but it doesnt...BUT I'M NOT INTO GUYS! YET...lolx watever! so yea...maybe its because i've been thinking Pretty+Hot gals are just for the eyes...wat is really pretty is what they are like...most pretty and hot gals i've meet have serious problem with their character and attitude(I DUN MEAN U! TO ME ALL MY FRENS ARE THE SAME! I TREAT U ALL ALIKE! AND I WILL) well...i mean yea no one is perfect...if u are pretty u got problem with attitude...if u have a good attitude u are not pretty...that's wat everyone is right? Girls/Women/Females...Strange Creatures from Venus which can nvr be understood by HOT HUNKS FROM MARS! WAT ARE U THINKING? cox a guy will nvr be able to understand a girl...its the universal truth and also the universal Rule! guys out there if u haved reach the immortality level of understanding the Complex mind of these Strange and Wierd Babes...PLS TAG ME!

okok i shall stop here will blog again soon yea? gona mug now cyax! Take GOOD care everyone k? till next time! STAY TUNE!

When I see you...my heart doesnt skip a beat like it used to anymore...it just stops...because u are an exception...for I know I will never be able to be your match...I will force myself off this ride of fantasy and hope that i will never again board it...because i know it will never end...

Exam Period

2006-08-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

GOD!~SAVE ME!!!
Man! its was a pretty boring day today...i wanted to sneak out of the house to go kallang and see the kyking team in RD! but hell my parents were home the whole day...arg...now i gotta worry if i can join Real Run or not! exam starts next friday! and the new balance real run is on the SUNDAY! gosh which parent will be sane enough to let their son go sentosa for a 10km run knowing its his EXAM PERIOD??? i guess there are but...my parents are INSANE!that's why^^!ok i cant blog long! gotta make it fast huh?

NOW! haven been blogging the last few days Because:studying, self training at home, no time blah blah blah!

ok but anyway last thursday was cheryl's bday! yea didnt write anything abt wat happened huh? well i guess it was her BEST bday lorx cox it was a really joyful occasion!
11am: called crystal and wanted to drag her to cher's bday(cher and crys knows each other since pri sch!) cox cher wanna see her badly!
12nn: crys called back asked if her sis can come play wif my dog-.-??(lolx of course i said yes! crys got a very CUTE sis in sec1 this year! but i'm too old for her lolx!) 2
pm: left my house wif crys towards dobby ghaut to catch a movie wif cher and gang!
3pm: went to cathay cineplex to watch MY SUPER EX-GF!(damn humourous show! but lots of sexual content lolx!uma thruman is hot!!)
5+pm: finished the show, pj,jean,me walked around to the place while crys and cher catched up old times!(we were buying time for yasser and arwin to buy cake for cher and go back sch!)
6pm: back in and threw a small party at the 4th floor roof top for cher!)
6.45pm: walked crys to mac where she had her dinner.
7pm: went to class and had ICA3 for BSA!
(now here's the interesting part)
9pm: finished test and the gang decided it was time for the surprise!(yasser took cher to the 1st floor to talk while the others prepared)
9.15pm: the people took out their pressies and showed to her 1 by 1 but they were wearing it and stuff!(yasser designed a shirt wif BINGO patterns! cher calls herself BINGO queen-.-? i think that's her fav pressie! crys and me bought a shirt from meilian's store lolx!) We asked cher to change into the pressies since they were all wearable and she left for the toilet!
9.20pm: we went up to the 2nd floor bridge and sang a happy bday song for cher onced she came into sight at the bottom!(man she is SOOO damn TOUCHED! i know i would be^.^)
9,25pm: we went back down the place and guess wat? YASSER TOOK OUT HIS GUITAR AND STARTED SINGING TO CHER! AND ITS A CHINESE SONG!!! i cant rmb wats the title but i know how to sing it alittle lolx! well it must be cher's fav chinese song bahx hahax! The whole gang sang the chorus together! so damn nice!
9.30pm: i had to leave and meet crys for something else but before i left i could see that cher had a really really joyful day!

Yeps that's most of it i can rmb! hahax! gee shes so special isnt she? hahax! well stay cute gal! i'll blog on more special things in future if it occurs! till then! cyax!

National Day

2006-08-08T21:04:00.000+08:00

HELLO! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!#$%^*&(*^%$ Gee...watever! YEPS its national day! oh great....i wonder if Singapore is happy abt she getting older-.-? After all shes our MUM! don't we all wish her happy birthday? but seriously...my mum had her bday last Sunday...from wat i see shes not happy abt getting older-.-...so ironic man! Youngster like me wish i can get older so i can have more FREEDOM!(i have pretty strict parental control!) yet adults like them wish they can get YOUNGER so they can KEEP UP WIF THE GENERATIONS! but hey...we all grow old some day! its jus a matter of time right? anyway we bought her Cake from AWFULLY CHOCOLTE! man its one hell of a nasty dark chocolate cake...u can practically get addicted to it if u like dark chocolate...its got a bomb price tag on it too-.-...

On addition, me and my sis bought her a plague which practically saved us toking abt things like: u are the best mum in the world! cox the plague had everyting a mum wanted to hear encripted on it haax! well anyway...my dad brought us to SAKAE SUSHI to have dinner that night...geee i really missed working there...and i had a pretty sweet revenge on the staff(i dun knw them! all new except for 1) because as a waiter u know wat the customer is entitled to and well...i gave them hell lots of work to do!!^^ WAHAHAHA( i am evil! EVIL! AND I LIVE TO BE EVIL!LIVEVIL!!!) on top of that! i asked my fren(the only old staff there) to give me a BIG discount hahax! i practically got away wif being EVIL!!! lolx...

Anyway! its Cheryl's bday on thursday! be sure to buy something or wish her happy 17th bday!!! hahax...shes a nice gal! but always against me!!! but i dun deny tat she's nice^^! so yea ppl out there! make her happy tat day yea?

Yeps and now TO-------->MY LIFE! ok ppl if u dun wanna hear u can leave this webpage but pls dun make noises when leaving! others still wanna read k!
ok watever! gee...so i'll be spoiling alittle stuff on my life today! yea...ok i admit! i do like a girl at the moment!(some ppl jus keep asking and asking!) but u know wat? its not like those kind of LOVE! u know...cox the thing is...i dun really intend to woo her...or rather i know i dun stand a chance...so the feelings for her are just slowly fading away...and it has ALREADY faded alot...in fact to me...its not really the right time to have a girlfriend or anything now! So yea...i think u can say that ITS NOT LOVE! so not like I LOVE HER! but maybe i do like her hahax...gee...how should i say this? OH WELL FLUNK IT! so yea i jus hope that we are really good frens^^...i mean...well...she is better as a fren than someone closer than that to me haax! so keep it up fren^.6...
YEPS! so that's all for TODAY! shall blog again another time! TATA~

Heys! i gotta tell you this if u ever see this and u know i am refering to u!being frens is nice...but hell...cant u be NICE?ok watever!

nice day!

2006-08-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

Heys People!~1st of all! i would like to say a big THANK YOU to all those who cheered me on eversince wat happened a few days ago...THANKYOU! I somehow realise that i do have many supporting frens...thankyou to all!!! anyway i am much more cheery now^^ u guys are right...wats past is past...dun think abt it! i hope ppl will learn from my lesson!

Today was really fun! i woke up but i didnt go for lessons today! instead i went out wif crystal...she had a last minute job at Jurong Point and couldnt come to my sch and since it was jus 1 lesson from 1-3 i thought tat i wasnt wise to go...anyway i helped crystal out at the stall she was tending and i manage to sell a necklace and a doll for her^^...well sort of help her to sell lar hahax...then we went to outram and had crystal do her braces maintenence hahx...and we saw Ms Loke! gosh i didnt see her for like 2 years! seems that shes retired from teaching...she taught me since when i was sec 2 and i scored an A...infact science had always been my best subject but she was a really good teacher! paitence and understanding! but shes fierce lar hahax...she seems so free now...talking to her was quite fun cox she actually shared wif me lots of things abt the new principle of Hua Yi SS...tat Ms Mable...heard she isnt really in favour of the students...well...i dun like her either in a way! i definately prefer Mrs Kong! heard from ms loke that shes now the principle of principles hahax! thats so cool lar! wish i can pay her a visit one day^^...

After her braces appointment was done we returned to JP and straight to the Arcade! crys said she could complete Time Crisis 2 in 1 token...well i did that too before...but today wasnt really my day and died in stage 1>.<...well nvm! we went on some racing with Daytona...its simply a classic man! hahax i beat her as usual=P! Hanging out wif crystal is really fun! Y? cox we can SEE GALS!!! hahax...so funny...in JP its like so many of them! i was flashbanged many times lar! my eyes are so full and sweet=P! Really ALOT u know!!! Most of them are quite pretty lar!!! OHOHOH!! den we saw this very pretty gal wif her bf...her bf is really kns! and his like keep touching her...then they go up the escalator that time the boy stood behind her and grind her>.<...gosh i pity her lorx...shes got a really pervertic bf...i mean if his good looking then i wldn't bother abt it but hell his fat and ugly with a lousy hairstyle and a face full of HOLES!!! well maybe he is really nice to her...but the way he behaves in public is REALLY GROSS!!!

After "sightseeing", we met up wif wilson and Harrison! Harrison is from Nigeria...gosh...i've met many foreigners but nvr met a nigerian be4 lolx...and man he is really cute! and he is quite cool and very steady! his from JJC in crystal's class and guess wat? tomorrow is his BDAY! and they are celebrating in sentosa...i wish i can go...but i cant even go kayaking how to go ppl's bday sia...haix...i reached home at 9pm(my curfew was suppose to be 7pm) but so glad that no one was home! quickly went to bath and settled down then my dad came home! PHEW so close sia!...seems tat no one knew i was late besides my dad and he is much more forgiving than mum...if mum were to know i was 2hrs late i'll be not be bloggin now lolx!hope i can beg my way to kayaking or harrison's bday tomorrow! will blog again asap! CYAX!

I wish that somehow i will meet u accidentally...then maybe...jus maybe...we will have time to hang out...

soul searching?

2006-08-02T21:58:00.001+08:00

Today...woke up in the morning 8am...still depressed over wat happened...decided not to go to school...i cant face my classmates...not yet...bathed...took my bike and cycled around jurong...many things went through my mind when i was cycling and wasnt really concentrating on the road...rammed into a few objects...trees...poles etc...wasnt really injured or anything...stopped at 1pm by my grandmother's hse to eat lunch...its been 1 week since i last saw her...missed her alot...i always cheer up when i see her cheery smile...all my life shes been my sunshine there's practically nth i can do without her...after seeing her i felt better...but it still wasnt enough to make me stop thinking abt it...decided to go home and rest abit...

On the way home while crossing the zebra crossing on my bike a taxi came buy and rammed into me...i didnt notice it coming or rather my mind wasnt concentrating...but the taxi braked in time so it was just a bump on my thigh...but i fell off the bike...twisted my waist alittle i guess...cox it hurts when i tried to bend or use strength on my back and my right thigh hurts too...but i managed to cycle back to my hse...

Layed on my bed...still thinking of stuffs...wat shld i do?haix...so much wish i can go kayaking today...at least if i can see jerm,sky,JJ,yirui,joel,leon,justin,david,derrick, yunos,gen,Ju,hsing yee,jasmine,nadz, and the seniors then maybe i wun think so much...plus its wednesday today...i might get a chance to see Naomi again and finally be friends wif her instead of jus being able to see her on wednesdays...this whole week seemed to be the worst one...

4pm...i woke up...anyang called me asked if i wanna go and play basketball...my waist and thigh didnt really hurt much so i decided to go...wasnt in the mood to play...so i went down and slacked...no perfect shots like i use to do...no stylish layouts + no faking passes...i was like a noob on the court...so embarassing...haix...

went home at 8pm...like a zombie looking for a prey...i felt as if i could eat anything in the world...so glad to see dad's bought dinner...finished it in like 1min? lolx...sat down in front of my laptop and did the usual stuff...

A pretty boring post today huh? cox today is really boring and nth really happens when i am depressed...sry ppl...

It is not going to work out...is there really such a word call "hope"?then i hope that there is still "hope" for me...

a bad day...

2006-08-01T19:55:00.000+08:00

It was a terrible day...a very bad one...the moment i stepped into class at 9am this morning 1 of my classmate asked: why weren't u at arwin's BBQ yesterday? i was like wat the hell??? i thought they said they weren't celebrating...haix...turned out yasser lied...i was damn furious...i hate liars the most...assholes...hell...i kept calm during the morning class...really clam as if nth happened...but by the afternoon class i couldnt take it and asked him in the class before the lesson...guess wat he said?"its not that i want to lie u go ask someone else about it..." wtf? i just know wat the truth is, wat for make it so complicated? guess wat he said next?" wat i cannot lie ar? beat me up lar!" and i stood up to face him...nxt moment ppl came to seperate us...wth...i wasn't even pissed till he said that sentence man...i was talking nicely to him ok...he thinks i'm easy to be bullied? fuck the hell out of him man...PJ pulled me out of the class and to a corner to talk...well he did said some sense into me...but the anger was still there and i really really wanna drag him out and beat some sense into him...but it wasnt nice since my whole class was there...watever i do i'll still be at the losing end according to PJ...haix...i calmed down eventually and went back to class...apologised to yasser cox i wasn't right in flaring up...but hell i still dun think its good to lie...wat a classmate man...i dun know wat is the fucking problem man...many things went through my mind...was it jus yasser or was it arwin? or the rest of the class? i think i've failed as the class chairman...its so depressing...the last time i was this disappointed in the class was during the microecons play where everyone teased me for being gay...its the 2nd time oredi...wat am i suppose to do? forget everything? that's practically impposible with my character...things will definately be different in class now...i'm gona request a change in the chairman...maybe it will be less depressing...i actually apologised to everyone in the class today...but am i really in the fault? Leo asked me to do some soul searching and go find out wat i did wrong...wat have i done wrong? i wasnt the one who lied ok! And i know it wasnt right to make a scene in class but i apologised wat more do u want? my life? i guess they are practically blaming everything for spoiling their day from their nick on MSN...great...asking me to grow up?haix i got nth to say...the worst mood now...but thx to PJ clement yirui and kah hwee today for standing by me...to the rest i've oredi apologised and i gona say it again Sorry class if i am really in the wrong...but pls go think what u have done wrong too cox i dun think that the fault only lies wif me...Worst Mood...signing off...
I have done all i could...yet still no response from you...will you drop me a hint?pls...?

Cant go training...wth...

2006-07-31T18:45:00.000+08:00

(NOT IN MY BEST MOOD)Man! Today sux! i wanted to go kayaking training today so i asked for permission from my dad jus to be polite and guess wat he told me? THE EXAMS ARE COMING STAY HOME AND STUDY! FROM NOW TILL UR EXAM FINISHES NO KAYAKING/BASKETBALL OR ANY UNNESSCARY ACTIVITIES OR NO POCKET MONEY AND I'LL LOCK THE DOOR!!! wth...this really really really really really really really SUX! no choice...but i did my own training at home anyway...of course it won't have as much the effect as the training given by Damien or Samantha(these two captains rox!!) Nth much happened today? studied abit here and there...but nth seems to had went in...gosh they must be happily training oredi...so ironic...i am always pestering ppl to go training and now i'm unable to go>.<...haix...2weeks sia...my physical condition will drop like shit larx! gosh...i gotta go dinner now...will blog again...bye...

been slow and gave space...but u told me wat u really need is sumthing else...

Morning!

2006-07-31T10:27:00.000+08:00

Good Morning...Just woke up and had nth to do...turned on my laptop and came to my blog webpage and hey! why nt blog abit? hahax...anyway i had a strange dream last night...but i only remember bits and pieces here and there...hmm...anyway in the dream, i was walking along a dimly lit road...it never seemed to end so i started sprinting...then i saw someone in front...it looked like a gal from the bag view...i tapped her shoulder and she turned around...i couldnt really see who it was due to the dimly lit atmosphere...when i was abt to speak she silenced me and said:" this is a dream only you and i share..."and my dog started barking at me in the real world and woke me up...wierd dream huhx? couldnt figure out who the gal was though...anyone had the same dream?hahax lame...anyway it looks like a very nice day to hangout with my frens since there is no school^^...hmm...but i have to mug though...exams are coming...hmms...the opportunity cost for hanging out with my frens today is nt getting better grades in exams...hahax (Microeconomics-opportunity cost chapter 1) read it up guys! Today is Arwin's bday! happy birthday arwin! hope u stay cute and huggable forever =x! anyway yasser told me nt celebrating today cox ur family celebrating for u huh? well hope it will be a bang tomorrow yea? ok i've decided to stay home and study!!!GOGOGO! so yea! signing off here da? all the best to everyone k? buaix!

PS: someone saw my little secret quotes yesterday>.<...guess i mus make it less obvious now!
If only you were there for me when i need you...

My space

2006-07-30T21:47:00.000+08:00

heys...its been quite awhile since i blogged the last time...years i guess? thought abt creating a blog since my frens are having fun with theirs^^...anyway alittle info abt me...
-my name is alfred,
-i have lots of nickname...alfreak alflirt alfi(my dog's name is alfi...) Ace!
-17 this year i guess,pretty much a life i've got...
-wat i like most is frens...always treasure frenship yea?
-studies sux but sch rox!
-currently in NYP taking a buisness management diploma
-graduated from hua yi sec(pretty much a fun school!)
-NYP kayaking rocked my life~!
-have wonderful classmates and its damn cool!

yep...that's most of the things abt me...

Today:

Went out with crystal,wilson,eileen and hers sis to study at JE library..suppose to meet eileen and her sis at 3.30 but we met them at 4.30=P hahax sry eileen! blame it on wilson! he wanted to go home and take his book lolx! anyway i read the 1st chapter of microecons and got so damn bored-.- lolx... then wilson took out his psp and the nxt moment i was hoggin on it hahax! played for awhile and wilson+ crystal went to look for chiobus in the lib at 4th floor...left me and eileen+her sis there for like 30+mins...came back and told me there is 1 pretty gal in purple jacket there...naturally i went to check it out^^!well she was kinda cute but seriously nt my type lolx!ended studying session at 7.30 and decided to go KPool to relax abit^^(wasn't really stress though lolx=X) eileen wanted challenged me 1st and i showed her wat a loser shld look like which all she had to do was look in the mirror^^! hahax joking...she almost won the 3rd match^^! wilson came next and had the same tragic end like eileen...then came CRYS! omg shes good^^her style was slow and steady jus like her nick(turtle) and my killing spree came to an end (crystal pawned alfred for extra 200 gold!). left Kpool and went straight home with crystal! such a tiring day hahax! cheers!

isit really love? or jus a crush?i wonder if i should...